Damn
Today has been so emotionally confusing. First, I might be moving and that alone is over whelming but then on top of that.. I saw levis picture today. I can’t believe everything we have been through. When I look at his picture its like I don’t even know who he is.. Like how the hell did I spend so many years with him, and lose everything to him… If you knew how many times ive kissed him it would make you sick. Honestly, Im starting to forget parts about him that I love or well, loved… Like the way his lips taste or feel upon mine.. When I kiss someone elses lips it just dosent feel the same.. also, the way he feels or even his voice.. I dont know if i should be happy or sad that Im starting to forget.. I wonder if he remembers me? I wonder if I ever cross his mind? These are questions I would love to ask but never will know.. especially if I move 10 hours away.. then he really will just be a figment of my imagination. I feel that I am moved on and then I see a picture or a place that we have a memory from and I get upset.. And I don’t know why.. like who is he? Who the hell am I? Why the hell is everything so fucking fucked up?! what the hell happend to me…
